Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Warning - one of those topics you don't discuss in public!!!
RELIGION.
There. I said it, and I will get back to it.
I've been gone again for quite awhile. It's not that I don't have anything to say, but more I didn't have the words to say it.
I was pretty messed up for awhile there. I just couldn't think straight and it was driving me absolutely nuts….and I know that *may* not be that far of a walk, that does NOT mean that I'm interested in crossing that line into insanity and all on purpose! lol. Anyway, I took an incomplete in a class, worked on didactic and when that guy said "trust the process" he wasn't kidding!!! Then I caught that crud going around. I can't tell you the last time I was that sick. Ugh. Hope you all don't get it or recover quickly. It's NASTY…..but while I was too sick to move, my mind took the time to sort a bunch of my life philosophy stuff out.
I'm not sure why I'm posting this now, unless it's either to serve as a reminder to myself at some future date, somebody needs to read it, or I might want to rereference the thought pattern sometime, I wanted to have access. My blog is about the ONLY place where I don't lose stuff. I just need to remember that I wrote it in OCTOBER of 2011!! Yep, that was done on purpose to try to cement this content with that file. Believe me, it's hard to live in my brain!
Anyway, I haven't gone to church in years. I really don't want to get into that part of it as it's only important as a reference point for what I'm about to say.
I have pretty much always (I'm sure there's gaps. We all know that I LIVE for doubt gaps unfortunately. What is the female name of Thomas? Yeah, I'm her….anyway, I've almost always believed in a higher power. I have come to the conclusion that I don't give a rats ass what you call it, truth is truth no matter what name you put on it. I happen to call this higher power God. I also believe that he is omnipresent and that He IS love. The rest of the trappings are pretty much just trappings that satan uses to split believers so we aren't as strong…….but I digress.
Last night, I felt the need to post 4 songs on my friend's facebook wall. As I went to see if I could remember what I was trying to remember at the time (which was pretty much a result of prayer time…) I saw a new truth….that in those four youtube clips is my testimony, my belief in the basic road to salvation….which is having a relationship with the one who IS love, and how I think it works. It's not something we try to do, it is something we are compelled to do. I love people. Great. So I share love in about a zillion formats. That's just who I am. AND THAT IS MY JOB on this earth. Each relationship I have stems from love on some level. Sometimes I just put the wrong title on the wrong type of love. I am also positive I will screw this up for the rest of my life. Hopefully, with less frequency, though.
Instead of telling you what I see……I dare ya to watch JUST TO SEE if something rings true in you. If not, no harm, just a few lost minutes of music you may not like and words you may not agree with. If you do, well, then may it touch your heart in the way it was meant to touch you, which is for you and you alone. If you choose to share, great. If you choose not to, great.
One
Two
Three
Four
So, I dare you to Let Your Love Flow
There. I said it, and I will get back to it.
I've been gone again for quite awhile. It's not that I don't have anything to say, but more I didn't have the words to say it.
I was pretty messed up for awhile there. I just couldn't think straight and it was driving me absolutely nuts….and I know that *may* not be that far of a walk, that does NOT mean that I'm interested in crossing that line into insanity and all on purpose! lol. Anyway, I took an incomplete in a class, worked on didactic and when that guy said "trust the process" he wasn't kidding!!! Then I caught that crud going around. I can't tell you the last time I was that sick. Ugh. Hope you all don't get it or recover quickly. It's NASTY…..but while I was too sick to move, my mind took the time to sort a bunch of my life philosophy stuff out.
I'm not sure why I'm posting this now, unless it's either to serve as a reminder to myself at some future date, somebody needs to read it, or I might want to rereference the thought pattern sometime, I wanted to have access. My blog is about the ONLY place where I don't lose stuff. I just need to remember that I wrote it in OCTOBER of 2011!! Yep, that was done on purpose to try to cement this content with that file. Believe me, it's hard to live in my brain!
Anyway, I haven't gone to church in years. I really don't want to get into that part of it as it's only important as a reference point for what I'm about to say.
I have pretty much always (I'm sure there's gaps. We all know that I LIVE for doubt gaps
Last night, I felt the need to post 4 songs on my friend's facebook wall. As I went to see if I could remember what I was trying to remember at the time (which was pretty much a result of prayer time…) I saw a new truth….that in those four youtube clips is my testimony, my belief in the basic road to salvation….which is having a relationship with the one who IS love, and how I think it works. It's not something we try to do, it is something we are compelled to do. I love people. Great. So I share love in about a zillion formats. That's just who I am. AND THAT IS MY JOB on this earth. Each relationship I have stems from love on some level. Sometimes I just put the wrong title on the wrong type of love. I am also positive I will screw this up for the rest of my life. Hopefully, with less frequency, though.
Instead of telling you what I see……I dare ya to watch JUST TO SEE if something rings true in you. If not, no harm, just a few lost minutes of music you may not like and words you may not agree with. If you do, well, then may it touch your heart in the way it was meant to touch you, which is for you and you alone. If you choose to share, great. If you choose not to, great.
One
Two
Three
Four
So, I dare you to Let Your Love Flow
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